And we're moving.....

If you take a look around you will notice that the Hamilton Family Circus... is now, well, the Hamilton Family Circus again.

Unwritten has now officially been moved. I have been trying desperately to avoid this move but at the end of the day it was the only thing I could do to try to get my blogging mojo back.

If you remember, about a month ago I gave this blog a new look. I changed the name and updated the design. I thought it would help me get back to me again but it didn't seem to be working. Every time I wanted to come to my blog I still had to enter hamiltonfamilycircus. The name was changed but the old feel still remained. So, I haven't been posting here, I haven't been reading any of my other blogs (at least not very regularly), and I haven't been commenting there either.

Then on Tuesday came the final straw. I received another anonymous comment. You know how much I love those don't you? This commenter didn't necessarily say anything mean. The gyst of their comment was that they had never been to the blog before but they were a friend of Jake's and that Jake and his family didn't care what was going on in my life and I should post what I wanted.

You can go to the post titled Stuck if you want to read the whole thing. Either way, the comment struck a nerve. If it was their first time here, why did they come? Our divorce has been final for almost four months. Why now? The timing just seemed a little to coincidental considering we had just had a family team meeting the night before.

And then it just sort of hit me. This blog, in this place, will never truly be just mine. It was started as our family blog. It is googlable as our family blog. People come here to read about us but there is no us anymore. And as long as it remains in this place and with people continuing to check in and leave anonymous comments I will never feel free to blog as I once did.

In moving Unwritten I have read through a lot of the old archives. I found a post about how free it felt once Jake was committed to finally be able to come here and write the truth. I lost that freedom when Jake and I started the divorce process and I have never been able to get it back. Something about me just continues to hold back and it makes me incredibly sad to do so.

I miss this blog and I miss being able to share my life with all of you. So, I'm moving. If I have your e-mail I will be e-mailing you the link. If I don't and you want to follow me please e-mail me (hamiltonfamilycircus[at]yahoo[dot]com) or leave a comment here with your e-mail address. If you ask, you shall receive. The blog is not private, or password protected. It's just moved. I hope all of you can come with me, losing any of my readers was the biggest reason I stayed here and resisted the move so long.

As for this blog, I'm not sure what will happen to it. I don't really want it to be come defunked but I'm not sure what to put here either. In a perfect world this place will contain updates about Zack for some of the people who don't come with me in the move. But.... we shall see. This blog has been my home for over four years and it makes me sad to leave it but it makes me even more sad to not be able to come here and be myself.

Hope to see you all on the flip side.