Appointment

I got ahold of the doctors office yesterday. You can potentially get into see a phychiatrist or counselor faster if you have a doctors referral and since some of the really good ones are full or have long waiting lists I decided to go this route. I'm also hoping that by having a referral the insurance company will pay for it. My policy pays for 52 mental health visits a year. I think this qualifies.

I did, however, feel quite bad for the lady on the phone. My old doctor had given me specific instructions to ask for a certain receptionist and to tell her that I needed to see this other doctor this week. The first available opening was Thursday. As far as I'm concerned Thursday is fine but she seemed uncertain. Is Thursday soon enough? Are you sure? As if she thought if I didn't see the doctor right away I might walk out in front of a bus or something.

Now I may very well walk out in front of a bus but I assure you it would be purely unintentional. The bus stop is in front of my building and Burger King is across the street. In my sleep deprived state I may in fact stumble into traffic trying to reach the holy grail that is Burger King but I'm counting on the fact that the buses have to stop there so hopefully they wouldn't hit me with a force that was too significant!!

So there you have it. I'm relieved to have come to this place and I'm ready to begin talking to someone else. Until this point my stance was that Jake and I have to work on issues and he is not here so why talk to someone. I now know that there are SEVERAL things that I need to come to terms with and work on before he comes back.

And so it begins......